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Kid Cudi Opens Up About Mental Health With Jada Pinkett Smith & Willow Smith
The GRAMMY winner details his past struggles with substance abuse: "I was very good at keeping my troubles hidden"
Rapper Kid Cudi rose swiftly into the spotlight with his GRAMMY-nominated debut single "Day 'N' Nite" in 2008, along with a budding friendship with Kanye West, who signed him to his G.O.O.D. Music label that year. Fast-forward to 2018, with plenty more successes under his belt, Cudi has revealed that at one point he was silently—yet deeply—struggling through it.
"I was very good at keeping my troubles hidden. Even from my friends, I was really good at that," Cudi shares in a recent conversation on "Red Table Talk," a Facebook Watch show hosted by Jada Pinkett Smith, along with her daughter, Willow Smith, and mother, Adrienne Banfield-Norris. The topic of discussion was mental health, with Cudi sharing his personal struggles with stress, depression and substance abuse, and how he was finally able to heal.
The episode, titled "Confronting Mental Illness," opened with a discussion with the three generations of women, who brought in Cudi as their special guest. As he sat down, Jada shared how special it was to see one of the artists her children looked up to (including Willow, who has put out two albums of her own) live up to his name.
In turn, Cudi revealed how he felt pressure to be someone people could look up to, which caused him to feel he didn't have space for how he really felt.
"It's like my life was like this show and I was always supposed to be on, but when the show was over I was completely miserable. For a long time I was not happy when I woke up in the morning," the rapper said. "It took me a minute to realize there was something going wrong with me."
He shared that he had struggled with drug use when he first was in the public eye, and quit after getting arrested in 2010. When the spotlight came for him in 2008, he felt new stresses and had no outlet for his emotions, nor did he feel like he had anyone to really help him through this new lifestyle in a healthy way.
"Being famous…was weird for me early on. It happened really fast for me, and nobody coached me, no mentorship, I was just kinda in it. I was a kid. 23, 24 is still a kid…it was like, 'Oh, maybe if I try drugs I can be okay,'" Cudi explained.
He also shared that he always hid his drug use from everyone in his life, and in addition to feeling pressure to keep up his image as "everybody's hero," he also kept his struggles to himself "because I was ashamed." This led to a rollercoaster of bottled emotions, secret on-and-off drug use and deep levels of unhappiness. He said that by 2016 "when I wasn't at work it was a nightmare. So I used drugs again."
Jada asked if he thought he had been using drugs to try to manage the depression, to which Cudi agreed, and revealed he eventually reached a breaking point which led him to find help where he could face his pain head-on. "[Rehab] finally helped me talk through it…I don't think I ever really did that in my life. I never really thought about 'Well, why am I depressed?'"
Towards the end of the conversation Willow tearfully brought up young people dying, like the late rapper Mac Miller: "So many young people are just dying because of trying to satiate those emotions with drugs."
Cudi's story is triumphant and points to the struggle so many young people in the public eye and the music industry face. It also demonstrates how artists’ honesty about their pain can not only help them process, but it can help others struggling with depression and addiction relate as well.
Allen Hughes' "The Defiant Ones" Wins Best Music Film | 2018 GRAMMY
Director Allen Hughes' four-part documentary takes home Best Music Film honors for its portrayal of the unlikely partnership that changed the music business
The team behind The Defiant Ones celebrated a big win for Best Music Film at the 60th GRAMMY Awards. The crew awarded include director Allen Hughes and producers Sarah Anthony, Fritzi Horstman, Broderick Johnson, Gene Kirkwood, Andrew Kosove, Laura Lancaster, Michael Lombardo, Jerry Longarzo, Doug Pray & Steven Williams.
In a year rife with quality music documentaries and series, the bar has been set high for this dynamic category. The Defiant Ones is a four-part HBO documentary telling the story of an unlikely duo taking the music business by storm seems better suited for fantastical pages of a comic book, but for engineer-turned-mogul Jimmy Iovine and super-producer Dr. Dre, it's all truth.The Defiant Ones recounts their histories, their tribulations and their wild success. These include first-hand accounts from those who were there in Iovine's early days, such as Bruce Springsteen and U2's Bono, as well as those on board when Dre and Iovine joined forces, such as Snoop Dogg and Eminem.
The competition was stiff as the category was filled with compelling films such as One More Time With Feeling, Two Trains Runnin', Soundbreaking, and Long Strange Trip.
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Pearl Jam Named Record Store Day 2019 Ambassadors
Pearl Jam's Mike McCready says "if you love music," record stores are the place to find it
Record Store Day 2019 will arrive on April 13 and this year's RSD Ambassadors are Pearl Jam. Past ambassadors include Dave Grohl, Metallica, Run The Jewels (Killer Mike and El-P), and 61st GRAMMY Awards winner for Best Rock Song St. Vincent.
McCready was also the 2018 recipient of MusiCares' Stevie Ray Vaughan Award.
The band was formed in 1990 by McCready, Jeff Ament, Stone Gossard, and Eddie Vedder, and they have played with drummer Matt Cameron since 2002. They have had five albums reach No. 1 on the Billboard 200 and four albums reach No. 2.
"Pearl Jam is honored to be Record Store Day's Ambassador for 2019. Independent record stores are hugely important to me," Pearl Jam's Mike McCready said in a statement publicizing the peak-vinyl event. "Support every independent record store that you can. They're really a good part of society. Know if you love music, this is the place to find it."
With a dozen GRAMMY nominations to date, Pearl Jam's sole win so far was at the 38th GRAMMY Awards for "Spin The Black Circle" for Best Hard Rock Performance.
Pearl Jam will be performing on March 3 in Tempe, Ariz. at the Innings festival, on June 15 in Florence, Italy at the Firenze Rocks Festival and at another festival in Barolo, Italy on June 17. On July 6 Pearl Jam will headline London's Wembley Stadium.
Portugal. The Man To Aida Cuevas: Backstage At The 2018 GRAMMYs
Also see James Fauntleroy, Reba McIntire, Latroit, and more after they stepped off the GRAMMY stage
What do artists do the moment they walk off the GRAMMY stage from presenting, accepting an award or performing? Now, you can find out.
Also see Best Pop Duo/Group Performance GRAMMY winners Portugal. The Man posing with their first career GRAMMY Award, Best Roots Gospel Album GRAMMY winner Reba McIntire right after she walked offstage, Best R&B Song GRAMMY winner James Fauntleroy, Best Remixed Recording GRAMMY winner Latroit, and many more, with these photos from backstage during the 60th GRAMMY Awards.
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Original Misfits Unleash One Night Only L.A. Reunion Show
Dark punk legends to play first show with Glenn Danzig and Jerry Only since last year's Riot Fest reunion
There's big news today for punk-rock fans aware that the Misfits made much more than just T-shirts.
The massively influential punk band announced a special show touted as the "only 2017 performance in this world… or any world" and billed as "The Original Misfits" in Los Angeles at the Forum on Dec. 30.
This will be the first Misfits show featuring original singer Glenn Danzig and original bassist Jerry Only with long-time guitarist Doyle Wolfgang von Frankenstein since the band reunited for a pair of Riot Fest appearances in Chicago and Denver in 2016. Last year's Riot Fest gigs, which featured drummer Dave Lombardo, marked the first time in 33 years the original Misfits members played together.
"OK Los Angeles, you've waited almost 35 years for this, here's your chance to see the "Original Misfits" in this Exclusive L.A. only performance." said Glenn Danzig. "No Tour, No BS, just one night of dark metal-punk hardcore brutality that will go down in the history books. See you there."
Tickets for this "one night only" show go on sale Friday, August 25.